Holding on to a Memory

Bella,
I am a person of many words. A person who holds grudge, who loves to quickly, and hurts deeply. I am a person who weeps for a person because I saw a story about them on the news. My emotions go from 
sad to happy in a matter of seconds. My heart breaks when I watch a television show like Grey's Anatomy. I am a person who knows that life is short. 
Life is short.
I am also a quitter though. When life throws me lemons I don't always turn them into lemonade. Sometimes I turn my back. When things in my relationship gets tough...I tune it out. There are days I 
wish I could tune out the world and just listen to music..there are days I wish with all my might didn't start. Days I hoped would end...and never have to look back. 
There are reasons that these emotions run so deep...reasons that I am who I am today...
These reasons are the memories. Memories of running through preschool in the pines with Jay, watching his 5 year old self trying to score a kiss from Jessica. Hearing Sophia recite John 3:16 without 
any help. Watching Sierra dye eggs on Easter and put frosting on cookies...or more like the table. Those were the good ones. Then I have these other memories, reading To Kill A Mockingbird one spring 
evening trying to crane for the test the next week. Going to bed that night lake because I couldn't sleep. Waking up, with my father crying at 2:30 am..telling me I needed to get ready because 
something has happened. 
The story goes on..but I remember that day like it was yesterday. The heartbreak and the tears. The terror. I remember it. Holding on to a memory is like carrying baggage. Memories that bring you down 
are a burden. The good ones are what pick you up and help you get out of bed in the morning. 
They build and share us. 
There are memories that I will hold forever..and that may hinder my growth..but this I tell to you.
Never forget the memories that you make with the ones that love you. Always remember the good ones and try to let go of the bad. Because letting go, will allow you to have a better life. Letting go 
will not hinder relationships for you like they have me. Life is looking up for you. Just jump on because its gonna be a bumpy ride...but enjoy it while it lasts...because life is short. Carpe 
diem--seize the day.