Without Sin

Dear Bella,
Life is full of surprises. Full of people who judge. Full of people who think that because they choose a specific path of life, that they are "right".
When you go through life, you may have a lot of different paths you can take. You can become a doctor, a lawyer, a teacher. You can like men, or you can life women. You can be different, or you can be "normal". But it does not matter. Life is crazy, and people like to judge. If you come across anyone that wants to judge you for being you just remember this phrase, "He who casts the first stone is without sin." This was a verse in the Bible, where a lady was going to be stoned to death because she was a prostitute. Jesus stepped up to the plate, and said this, to make a point. That if you were to throw a stone, and judge this women for the Life choices she made, then you would be without sin. And then went on to say, that no one is without sin.
In simpler terms it means that if someone wanted to judge you, and bring you down, that they need to think before doing so. Because only a person who is "perfect, and without sin" has that right to do so. There is no one on the face of this earth who is perfect. The only person who is allowed to judge, will not judge you. God. He has that right, yet he does not take it because he loves you all the same.
It does not matter how you live your life. Whether you choose a different path then everyone else thinks you should. You have the right to take your life by the reins and steer it whichever way you want and God will respect you and love you all the same as long as you hold dear and believe in his love.
Many people in religious positions, and higher authority tend to want to judge a person by the way they live there lives. For instance, I have been living with Uncle Mike for 2 years, and have been with him 4. Many people might look at that as "not obeying Gods law." But, is it there place to judge? No.
We have the right under his law to be Free. He gave us the ability to think for ourselves, and make our own choices. When you trust in the Lord with all your heart you will be saved.
Life can be very hard when you run across people that want to make fun of you because you want to play with dolls, instead of a computer. Or when you get older if you go into art instead of law. But it really comes down to the fact that they don't have that right. You have the right to steer your own life in the direction you want. God will always be there to catch you when you fall, and God will not judge you for it. Because he understands that with freedom comes consequences. And those consequences are what makes your life worth living because it teaches you a lesson.

"He who casts the first stone is without sin." Don't let anyone bring you down, because NO one. I say again. NO ONE is without sin.

The Past

Being a child has its many highs and lows. You've got the loving family who will always take care of you. Feed you. Cloth you. Love you. You are the highlight of their world. The apple of their eye. The bounce in their step.
Being a child is one of the greatest things in the world. You don't have any responsibilities. Don't have to worry about waking up for school, because mom or dad will have to wake you up. Life is on cruise control and you are in the back seat enjoying the view.
But being a child also has its hardships. Are you liked by your friends? Do you have a playmate on the playground who will always choose you to play tag with? Do you have any problems with a school bully? Do you have a crush on a boy and get made fun of by him if he finds out? Those questions can eat you alive. Losing your best friend to another person on the playground because they have a nicer backyard to play in. Or getting picked on because your mom cuts your hair and makes your clothes so you don't have the new "in style" clothing. Its hard being a kid.
When looking back at the past one often asks the question, "What if?" or "What could have been?"
What if I didn't have acne growing up? What if my friend Lilly hadn't decided to go to Maggie's birthday party and decided I wasn't cool enough because my party didn't have a clown? Or maybe even, What could have happened if I decided to pick green socks that day instead of pink and been kicked out of my group because of it?
All these questions can eat you alive right?
Life can wear you down..
Yet all these questions are always asked, day after day, night after night.

But instead of looking back and asking them, think about how much time you will be saving if you look ahead at life. To believe that the grass is greener, and life will get better. If you don't dwell on the past, and you look towards the future. The glass is half full instead of half empty. Life will be more enriching in your eyes. Hope, and Joy will keep a person going. Despair, and questions will drag you down and add burdens to your happiness.

Clear eyes, and Full Hearts. Can't Lose!

These words will keep you going. With eyes wide open you will see the beauty. With full hearts you'll be able to dream big. And with these you won't lose. You will always win, and succeed. Anything you set your mind to will and can happen. Nothing in life is impossible if you just believe.

All sayings these sayings have a truth. But the morale is, that life will always be better if you just set your mind straight, and believe that it will be.


Dear Bella,
You might think your life is not that great. You might think that life has given up on you. But you have the whole world ahead of you. The world has everything to offer. You are an artist. You love life. Just because your life isn't that great now. Just think, 7 years old is only a fraction of how much time you have left. Trust in the Lord with all your heart and soul and you will have peace. Live for you, live for God.
For God so loved the world that he gave his only begotten son. That whosoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life.
Think about this. God gave his son to this cruel world. He had it rough. He was whipped and chained. Then crucified. Life does not suck if you think about it like that.
Open your eyes and see the beauty.

I love you baby girl.
You're daddy loves you too. He will always be there for you love. God is always there for you to, if you need someone to talk to who will always be listening he's your guy.

Auntie Amanda

Holding on to a Memory

Bella,
I am a person of many words. A person who holds grudge, who loves to quickly, and hurts deeply. I am a person who weeps for a person because I saw a story about them on the news. My emotions go from 
sad to happy in a matter of seconds. My heart breaks when I watch a television show like Grey's Anatomy. I am a person who knows that life is short. 
Life is short.
I am also a quitter though. When life throws me lemons I don't always turn them into lemonade. Sometimes I turn my back. When things in my relationship gets tough...I tune it out. There are days I 
wish I could tune out the world and just listen to music..there are days I wish with all my might didn't start. Days I hoped would end...and never have to look back. 
There are reasons that these emotions run so deep...reasons that I am who I am today...
These reasons are the memories. Memories of running through preschool in the pines with Jay, watching his 5 year old self trying to score a kiss from Jessica. Hearing Sophia recite John 3:16 without 
any help. Watching Sierra dye eggs on Easter and put frosting on cookies...or more like the table. Those were the good ones. Then I have these other memories, reading To Kill A Mockingbird one spring 
evening trying to crane for the test the next week. Going to bed that night lake because I couldn't sleep. Waking up, with my father crying at 2:30 am..telling me I needed to get ready because 
something has happened. 
The story goes on..but I remember that day like it was yesterday. The heartbreak and the tears. The terror. I remember it. Holding on to a memory is like carrying baggage. Memories that bring you down 
are a burden. The good ones are what pick you up and help you get out of bed in the morning. 
They build and share us. 
There are memories that I will hold forever..and that may hinder my growth..but this I tell to you.
Never forget the memories that you make with the ones that love you. Always remember the good ones and try to let go of the bad. Because letting go, will allow you to have a better life. Letting go 
will not hinder relationships for you like they have me. Life is looking up for you. Just jump on because its gonna be a bumpy ride...but enjoy it while it lasts...because life is short. Carpe 
diem--seize the day.

Dear Bella,

When I was young I hadn't a fear in the world. I could walk outside and see the beauty of our world, smell the rain washed air as the storms blew past. Life was great. Nothing could stop me as I climbed over fences and up trees. I learned if I fell, I knew if I had done wrong. Life was how it should be. A child growing up without a care in the world and with people who care.
You've had a rough start to life. You feel alone in the world and as if no one is here for you. Life isn't carefree is it? You say that you wish that someone would care. Close your eyes and listen please dear princess and look at this world. Nana and Papa and your daddy and I all care for you, but we aren't the only ones. God has been watching you and keeping you safe. Holding you close and wishing this pain would go away. He knows that you are hurting and wants you to understand that things will get easier each and every day. Times may be hard and life may plain suck. But remember he's watching and please hold him close. You are his child and I know he will never let you go.

"For God so loved the world that he gave his only begotten son. That for whosoever believes in him will have ever lasting life." John 3:16

This verse hits close to home for me because it was the first verse you spoke that I have taught u. But it is true. God blessed our lives with the thought that if we were to only grab his hand in the moments we think he is not there and trust in him with all our hearts...we will end up at his feet in heaven one day and have the carefree life you haven't experienced yet.
Look into the future dear angel and see that the past is the past, the present is the present, and our fifties lies with God in heaven. If you lol at life as the glass is half empty and it won't get any better, the your life isn't dedicated to the true meaning of life. Open your mind and see that God is here and always has been. See that he will never leave. Know that he cares and trust he will love you and fill the void in your life.
Life isn't always what it seems. Truth isn't always certain. But faith is always what your heart decides.
Hard life in the human world may not look so bad...if you learn to trust in the Carefree life you have in store.

Which do you choose? 

To life and let live?

or 

To live in fear and regret?

I hope you choose life dear angel.